For the past month, more or less, I have been trying to give the habit of gratitude some intention. Unfortunately I have come to the conclusion that possibly I am sheltering behind a sense of being outwardly grateful, rather than being truly and deeply grateful.
For I find, that by holding onto old dreams and desires, which given today’s circumstances are ever so impractical, I am blocking my view of reality, and thus blinding myself to the abundance of goodness actually available all around.
It is a clumsy and unfulfilling state of being I must say, because sadly, as I am sitting here, quite safe and sound, well fed and warm, in my quite comfortable chair, typing away on my quite nice iPad, which is connected to some quite nice high speed internet, and feeling quite fully satisfied in general, gratitude should be flowing in abundance, not a trickle.
Therefore, I have decided it would be best to give the past it’s freedom, a rest, and just go with the flow, because it is time you see, time to let go of what could, or should have been, for reals, and instead free float on the breezes, and see where life drifts me.
However, I don’t think I will be able to achieve a lasting lift off unless I give my defunct baggage the old heave ho, and replace it with a buoyancy and lightness of being, which, what do you know, just so happens to be a byproduct of a grateful heart.
Thankfully I do know this, that as long as I hold fast to: For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life, gratitude will never be in short supply, and all will be right with my soul regardless……sigh, so sweet.