Day 26

It’s Wednesday. I am normally quite fond of Wednesdays, but today, no it actually began yesterday, time seems to be creeping forward in slow motion mode. If you had asked me on Monday whether I would have wanted such a change, I would have answered positively yes, because for as many years as I can remember, I haven’t had enough time to accomplish what needed to be done. I blinked and the day would be gone.

Now I set myself to a task, buckle down and get it done, with the expectation of it being hours later, however it is not even lunch time yet. So on to the next task, and what the heck, it’s still morning…. grrr. This goes on all day and night, even when I am sleeping, I wake up continually checking to see if it is time to get up. I gotta tell you, it’s exhausting!

Well this just won’t do. What happened to speedy time, and why didn’t I get this “gift” of slow time years ago, when my children were young and time was super sonic. So much so, that I cannot seem remember its passage at all.

Well grrrr grumble groan. It seems that no matter what, I am destined to be dissatisfied, and I find that completely unacceptable. So let’s see if I can turn this around and recenter my equilibrium. Perhaps a list of the potential positives of times pokey passage?

Humm? Is this really just a subconscious subterfuge to reach the need for a list?

Whatever……I’m game, because oh yes, a list!

1) The ability to focus has returned.  (Okay that’s good. This could be alright)

2) Having the time to pay attention to details. (This could be bad. After having spent years taming and subduing my perfectionist tendencies)

3) More time to ponder between tasks. (This is definitely good. Perhaps I will learn to look before I leap)

Well, that’s it I suppose. It is kinda ironic that I have plenty of time to continue if I so desired, but instead I am finding that with all this time running amuck without purpose around here, I have become bored beyond reason with everything.

So I end with Blessings Belinda

ps. I don’t think my attempt for equilibrium went so well 😑


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