Oh Bonnie Foo Foo

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Little Bonnie Foo Foo is dying for the evenings, so she can go hop, hop, hopping through the blog fields, joining with all the people, frolicking in the words of play pouring from her head.

But later after midnight, the panic it awakens, it doesn’t play well with others, causing Bonnie Foo Foo to gather up her playmates, and bop, bop, bop them on the head.

Therefore with a sigh of sorrow, down came the Blog Fairy and said, “Little Bonnie Foo Foo I don’t want to see you, deleting all your playmates, please, please, please try loving them instead.”

So along came the next night, and what do we find but, Little Bonnie Foo Foo panicking through the blog fields, desperately wanting all her playmates, but deleting them in dread.

Heavy sigh, not again. So down came the Blog Fairy and kindly explained.

Little Bonnie Foo Foo do you really not realize what controls your life, and no amount of boot strapping will ever change this fact, so stop being a goon.

Wait, wait, wait, Little Bonnie Foo Foo! don’t panic and please do be still, and try to listen to this close.

Little Bonnie Foo Foo you have found an outlet, so please stop hop, hop, hopping, through the blog fields gathering up the people, and bopping them on the head.

And Little Bonnie Foo Foo said,

Okay

Again and Again and Again……sigh

 

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Praying Psalm 143

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Hear my prayer, O Lord,

Give ear to my supplications!

In Your faithfulness answer me,

And in Your righteousness.

Do not enter into judgment with Your servant,

For in Your sight no one living is righteous.

 

For the enemy has persecuted my soul;

He has crushed my life to the ground;

He has made me dwell in darkness,

Like those who have long been dead.

Therefore my spirit is overwhelmed within me;

My heart within me is distressed.

 

I remember the days of old;

I meditate on all Your works;

I muse on the work of Your hands.

I spread out my hands to You;

My soul longs for You like a thirsty land.

 

Answer me speedily, O Lord;

My spirit fails!

Do not hide Your face from me,

Lest I be like those who go down into the pit.

Cause me to hear Your lovingkindness in the morning,

For in You do I trust;

Cause me to know the way in which I should walk,

For I lift up my soul to You.

 

Deliver me, O Lord, from my enemies;

In You I take shelter.

Teach me to do Your will,

For You are my God;

Your Spirit is good.

Lead me in the land of uprightness.

 

Revive me, O Lord, for Your name’s sake!

For Your righteousness’ sake bring my soul out of trouble.

In Your mercy cut off my enemies,

And destroy all those who afflict my soul;

For I am Your servant.

Amen and Amen

Belinda

 

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50:3 You’re making me hungry

3) Favorite recipe?

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So many choices. Do I choose favorite to eat, favorite to make, or both?

Well for starters, I really like to make bread, and I like to eat it just as much; warm and soft, slathered with butter 💕 It is one of those foods that is just as satisfying to make as it is to eat.

And pie. I really like making pies for holidays. There is something about them I cannot quite pinpoint. I guess it is the feeling of accomplishment, to have a sideboard full of a variety, something sweet to be able to please everyone.

Nowadays though, we have portioned out the pie making.  One daughter makes the best pumpkin, one daughter makes the apple, and so on and so forth. This way we all get to have some fun. I also want to try my hand at meat, or dinner pies, anything with golden flaky crusts.

Truly I suppose, it is not a single recipe that gets me going, it is a combo that does. Like cheesy potato soup with hot biscuits and warm homemade applesauce with just the right amount of tang to cleanse the palette.

Also, any meal with bacon. I find cooking large quantities of bacon to be a challenge worth taking on, because when you get it just right, melt in your mouth crispy, wow! So buttermilk pancakes with fresh apricot purée, eggs, and bacon, or perhaps my preference, French toast swimming with butter and maple syrup.

However, none of these things have a recipe I am strictly beholden too, with exception of my grandmothers pie crust preparation, and even these are a matter of how to, not ingredients.

So as I have been fiddle fussing over finding an actual particular recipe which is a favorite of mine, I realized that I do have a favorite non-negotiable choice. It is just that it is something I never cook myself, but ask for always, and have as often as the maker will indulge me.

The chocolate cake recipe on the Hershey’s coco powder. It’s heavenly, and surprisingly, works wonders for my diet, because it has ruined all other chocolate cakes for me, and because it’s not readily available, I usually go without…sigh.

❤️ Blessings Belinda

Cooking is like love. It should be entered into with abandon or not at all.”

Harriet Van Horne

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50:2 Bleech 🤢

2) The worst movie I have ever seen?

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The Rocky Horror Picture Show

Even back in the day where I was lacking a moral compass this movie was too much, but I didn’t speak out and say so out of fear of looking foolish. It makes me wonder how much the emperors new clothes mentality has to do with its continued screening, but I guess deep down that is just wishful thinking on my part, because fallen man has always been vulnerable. So much sadness….sigh 😔

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“Trust in the Lord with all your heart
And lean not on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He will make your paths straight.”

Proverbs 3:5-6

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50:1 Ready Set Go

1) The thing that happened in high school that changed your life forever.

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Gosh golly, there are so many decisions made during your teen years which impact your life irrevocably that I was having a really hard time narrowing it down to just one, and then I caught hold of the interwoven pattern within the multitude of life changers and voila, the answer it hit me upside the head like a hot metal brick.

Alcoholism of course.

It’s funny how something as large as those lost and recklessly destructive years spent fighting the oblivion to be found in the bottle, has diminished so much with time that it had to be dredged out of my memory banks by force.

Perhaps it was because by the time I reached the end of my years of substance abuse, the after effects of drugs and alcohol couldn’t be mitigated anymore, spewing pain in an ever increasing diameter, and with the primary reason I sought escape in the bottle being a need to diminish the pain of being alive, I was able to give up on all my mind altering methods of escape cold turkey, and never once look back or desire them again, once I had a reason to abstain. I am forever thankful for this.

Additionally, because I would black out and not remember when I drank, from the very beginning of my drinking, all the way up to the harrowing end, those ten years were and are truly lost. Along with all of the opportunities only the young have and do not appreciate at the time.

However, by pondering this first of fifty, I was able to realize that the pain and embarrassment I used to feel over myself is gone.

As far as the east is from the west,
So far has He removed our transgressions from us”

Thank you Lord ❤️

Leaving only the age old dilemma, if I could change the past, would I?

For to take away all the pain and mistakes of the past,

Would also take away today’s greatest joys.

So, really not a dilemma after all.

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Day 30

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I so adore babies, but then again I suppose most people do. I mention this because I am going to have another grandchild soon. God is good, so very very good, yippie!

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Taken as a whole, today has been a very difficult day……..sigh 😔

However:

Finally brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is any thing praiseworthy — meditate on these things.” Philippians 4:8

 

Blessings Belinda ❤️

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Jude 1:24-25

Now to Him who is able to keep you from stumbling,

And present you faultless

Before the presence of His glory with exceeding joy,

To God our Savior,

Who alone is wise,

Be glory and majesty,

Dominion and power,

Both now and forever.

Amen

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