This plant brought back memories from many lifetimes ago when I was a lonely and desperate young mother of five living in a dismal rental. Well there was this scraggly carnation plant struggling for life right along with me in a planter on the edge of the drive way.
On the days when I would come home from work and heave myself out of the car, to unexpectedly find those neglected blossoms bursting forth once again, was a day I came into the house to cook dinner with a wee bit of extra zip in my get along.
So when I won this carnation plant in the Garden Club raffle, I was excited beyond what to most would appear rational. But the thing is, I had every intention of taking it home and giving it the tender care it deserves, because everything should have a bed in a happy home and the opportunity to bloom where their planted.
Finally have gotten this beauty ready to repair with a wee bit of tender loving care and sunshine. Thankfully only the edges where body oils were are damaged. I have worked my way though so many that were unfortunately so neglected by the previous owner that they fell apart when handled. Such a waste and hard lesson learned for her about keeping cloth items clean.
Applying for jobs for over a month without any response, only to find out you had made a typo in your email address is not really the worst actually.
No, now that I have fixed it, having to answer the phone and follow through with interviews is going to be worse than the hopeless rejection I was feeling.
But in the end, the deepest worst will be having to walk into a new environment if I am ever hired, which has to happen regardless of my desire for it not to.
Which leads me to know that just when you think it cannot get any worse, gird yourself, because it most definitely will…..oh my.
I have come to realize that I have been given a splendiferous gift during my current state of unemployment.
I have large blocks of time my on hands. Something I can’t remember ever being in possession of since having my children.
Anyway, I don’t want to waste it on my usual time sucking electronic activities. I of course will continue looking for work. I cannot afford not to.
However, until I get a nibble on my cast out lines, I am going to spend all my free, wait for it, it is such a lovely word, HOURS on the multitude of large projects I have never been able to tackle because of time restraints.
Which leads me back to here. I will not be checking in to moderate comments, and if any of you that I have been reading, and so very much enjoying, end up here, I want you to know that this post is really all about you. For it wasn’t with casual disregard that I unfollowed you.
No, it is because I am weak, and would not be able to stay away if I knew that you were just a finger swipe away. I will miss y’all, but I have no idea how much time I actually have. For I do need a job eventually.
Time or money……….sigh
God Bless, Belinda