50:30 What I have learned about life so far?
Time is valuable. Take the time to notice the little things, even in the midst of the chaos years.
Today I am enjoying watching the leaves fall. Something I can do even while indoors, as long as I take the time to stop and look out of the windows as I putter from room to room doing a little of this and a little of that, never making huge dents in the accumulated tasks I have before me, but rather taking little baby bites out of everything. What a mess I am making, but hopefully the randomness will keep me focused on the unfinishedness of it all. Linear thinking and task management have never been my forte.
But really time is not what I value most, rather just my current enjoyment of the day. For the older I get it becomes more and more apparent how much I don’t know. Besides, nothing really changes, ideas just cycle in and out of fashion. And spending my life striving to keep up would be a vain pursuit for sure and certain.
However, I would not want to squander the intellect the Lord has provided. I do read and study and dive deeply into the topics that matter to me. One of them being how to better love and serve my Lord with all my heart, all my strength and all my mind, and love my neighbor as myself. The necessary ingredients for joy inexpressible.
Thankfully in this I have found something that I can never complete, never accomplish, it will never be finished. For I will never be able to understand and know the mind or nature of God, but studying with Him teaches me about life, love, and myself, and this is more valuable than anything I have ever known, and not known, simultaneously. I am focused and drawn by the inability to know Him without Him. It’s not of myself.
This is not to say that trying to know the nature of God is a pointless fruitless task. Not at all, striving to know God is what makes life worth living; all else is fleeting, dust in the wind.
Hum…..not a single word of this post is what I sat down to write, I am not sure to where the original thoughts vanished, or why I let them go.
I will end this ramble with a link to a post I read this morning to which my mind keeps wandering. It articulates what I cannot.
Oh, the depth of the riches both of the wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable are His judgments and His ways past finding out!
“For who has known the mind of the Lord?
Or who has become His counselor?”
“Or who has first given to Him
And it shall be repaid to him?”
For of Him and through Him and to Him are all things, to whom be glory forever. Amen.