I don’t care

I’ve had covid twice now.

The first time was brutal.

The second time was distinctly unpleasant, but bearable

The first time was in early March 2020, and I was blissfully unaware of the complete nastiness of the beast, and so utterly sick, just breathing in and out took up all my attention. Recovery took months, but it eventually happened.

The second time in early January 2021, how could anyone not know all the gruesome details of covids potential destruction. So the stress of waiting to get well took a enormous bite out of my peace of mind. But hey, it didn’t turn on me and I got through it. So if anxiety is all I have to complain about, I am so lucky. 

Yesterday I had the first dose of my vaccine, and yes I feel like crap and my arm, it hurts.

So what do I not care about? The origins of covid.

  • Who was involved?
  • What happened?
  • When did it happen?
  • Where did it happen?
  • Why did it happen?
  • How did it happen?

I just don’t care. Really why does it matter? Why make it about politics, religion, globalism, etc. etc.

Why the need to place blame? What does it accomplish? Will it change things?

What I do care about is how we can get on with the art of living along side of this little beastie who now has serious part to play in the daily decisions of the entire world. There is no place to run. No place to hide. 

So, are we going to drive ourselves farther apart when we need each other most?

Sadly, if I wanted to gander a guess, I would say yes.

But I also want to add, I’m okay if you disagree with me. 

Perhaps that’s a start, but so very old fashioned to say, let’s agree to disagree.

And if I am very honest with myself, easier said than done.

But darn it! I intend to at least try. And would be tickled pink if you did too.

Let’s flatten the curve of incivility one tongue biting or finger folding at a time.

And now I feel the need to say, Huzzah! Just because I can.

Blessings to you and yours,



50:40 Comfort Food

40. What is on the Menu?

What am I feasting on today?

I have been looking at this question as it would pertain to food for my stomach rather than food for my soul, and doing so has made it be a difficult question. For I have had an unhealthy relationship with food for most of my life. I used it for comfort and stress reduction, thus in times of stress I over ate to the extreme.

However several years ago I began using a calorie and nutrition tracking app because I needed to loose weight if I wanted to stay mobile and able to do simple things, like not ever getting stuck on a public toilet for starters. This happened to someone I know, the fire department had to come and rescue her, yikes!

Anyway, as I tracked and measured it became apparent that there were particular activities that induced stress eating and knowledge is power. For with awareness mitigation can ensue, and I have managed to loose many many pounds so far.

Also what I consider most valuable for a lifetime of health, is to have garnered the ability to easily have a nutritionally balanced diet that is delicious, not at all skimpy, while still being calorie appropriate.

I am not on a diet, diets of only eat this, or only avoid that, don’t work for me. Instead I put in the effort over the last several years of learning how many calories are in what I like to eat, and learning to be able to eyeball the serving size that will give me satisfaction. I eat a lot and I am never hungry, which for me is a must. I truly dislike being hangry.

So back to the original question. What am I feasting through today? How am I watering my soul?

Well let me see: books, sermons, studies, and of course the Word of the Lord my Bible. I am truly blessed to be able to spend a couple of hours each morning satiating myself in the pursuit of knowledge of the Almighty. Intertwined in this feast is a delicious prayer time of communion with the Lord.

So sweet, so lovely, such a gift; the icing on the cake of my salvation.

‘Amen, blessing and glory and wisdom and thanksgiving and honor and power and might be to our God forever and ever, Amen.”

Revelation 7:12

“Speak therefore. Lord, for Your servant listens, “Thou hast the words of eternal life.” Speak to me for the comfort of my soul and for the amendment of my life, for Your praise, Your glory, and Your everlasting honor.”

Thomas a Kempis


Timeless Advice


“Let the water flow beneath the bridge; let men be men, that is to say, weak, vain, inconstant, unjust, false, and presumptuous; let the world be the world still; you cannot prevent it.

Let every one follow his own inclination and habits; you cannot recast them, and the best course is, to let them be as they are and bear with them.

Do not think it strange when you witness unreasonableness and injustice; rest in peace in the bosom of God; He sees it all more clearly than you do, and yet permits it.

Be content to do quietly and gently what it becomes you to do, and let everything else be to you as though it were not.”




They soon forgot His works;
They did not wait for His counsel,
But lusted exceedingly in the wilderness,
And tested God in the desert.
And He gave them their request,
But sent leanness into their soul.
Psalm 106:13-16


Looking for Light

“And a Canaanite woman from that region came out and began to cry out, saying, “Have mercy on me, Lord, Son of David; my daughter is cruelly demon-possessed.” But He did not answer her a word. And His disciples came and implored Him, saying, “Send her away, because she keeps shouting at us.” But He answered and said, “I was sent only to the lost sheep of the house of Israel.” But she came and began to bow down before Him, saying, “Lord, help me!” And He answered and said, “It is not good to take the children’s bread and throw it to the dogs.” But she said, “Yes, Lord; but even the dogs feed on the crumbs which fall from their masters’ table.” Matthew 15:22-27

I had always been uncomfortable with this passage, but the reading today in MacArthur’s commentary illuminated a wonderful meaning I had not seen before. 

“The woman’s faith was not great because it was stronger or more sincere or mature than the faith of many Jews who believed in Christ but because it was based on so little light.

Therefore, because she believed so much relative to so little revelation, Jesus called her faith great. And from her story we can propose five general qualities that mark all great faith: It is repentant, properly directed, reverent, persistent, and humble.” John MacArthur

I am looking forward to tomorrow as I begin reading through the expansion of each of the five qualities of great faith.


what we know not, teach us;

what we have not, give us;

what we are not, make us.

For Your Son’s sake.




“The greatest stumbling block to salvation has always been lack of acceptance and belief of the gospel, not lack of understanding it. It is precisely when the gospel is clearest – as when it is taught by Jesus Himself – that it is also likely to be the most unacceptable.”

~John MacArthur

I need to remember that people are not rejecting me, they are rejecting Jesus, and continue to press on in the cause of Christ.

“Glory in His holy name!
Let the hearts of those rejoice who seek the Lord!”
Psalm 105:3




“O you afflicted one,
Tossed with tempest, and not comforted,
Behold, I will lay your stones with colorful gems,
And lay your foundations with sapphires.” Isaiah 54:11 

“Not only what is seen in the Church of God but also what is unseen is fair and precious. Foundations are out of sight, and as long as they are firm, it is not expected that they should be valuable. But in God’s work everything is of the same value—nothing devalued, nothing irrelevant. The deep foundations of the work of grace are as precious as sapphires; no human mind is able to measure their glory.”


How firm a foundation, ye saints of the Lord,
Is laid for your faith in His excellent word!
What more can He say than to you He hath said—
To you who for refuge to Jesus have fled?

Fear not, I am with thee, oh, be not dismayed,
For I am thy God, and will still give thee aid;
I’ll strengthen thee, help thee, and cause thee to stand,
Upheld by My gracious, omnipotent hand.

When through the deep waters I call thee to go,
The rivers of sorrow shall not overflow;
For I will be with thee thy trouble to bless,
And sanctify to thee thy deepest distress.

When through fiery trials thy pathway shall lie,
My grace, all-sufficient, shall be thy supply;
The flame shall not harm thee; I only design
Thy dross to consume and thy gold to refine.

The soul that on Jesus doth lean for repose,
I will not, I will not, desert to his foes;
That soul, though all hell should endeavor to shake,
I’ll never, no never, no never forsake.



Pray without ceasing

“When He had taken the book, the four living creatures and the twenty-four elders fell down before the Lamb, each one holding a harp and golden bowls full of incense, which are the prayers of the saints.”
Revelation 5:8

Prayers are a sweet aroma to the Lord; fill heaven!