In the Garden

Greed is not a rich or poor issue, but a human issue.

“There is a grievous evil which I have seen under the sun: riches being hoarded by their owner to his hurt.” Ecclesiastes 5:13

Do not hoard your love, time, knowledge, resources, or your God.

I love how the chrysanthemums climb their neighbors.

“He who gives to the poor will not lack, But he who hides his eyes will have many curses.” Proverbs 28:27

I have to think that this is not only about money, but that it also includes the poor of hope and the lonely. So even if I do not have the resources to help much financially, I do have the knowledge and compassion of the infinite love of Jesus. So I must do the harder thing, and be a friend.


Undependable Me

Well it’s the 10th of November and I don’t know if I am going to post about my thankfulness journey again today. For the Lord has been taking me deep with fruitful results, therefore the editing for public consumption is not only difficult, but is reducing the results to nonsense, unless I naval gaze and let the lint spill out.

However, I have been reading a book that has grown on me the further along I get. I just had to get over the initial annoyance of it being written as a “woman’s book” rather than just as a good book.

This is a pet peeve of mine. Why do women do this, men don’t. Women get all chatty, and personal, like I wouldn’t enjoy their book unless I knew their favorite color, or whether they hate those lonely friendless women out there who like to go all out for others.

Well then again, here I am being all chatty and catty regarding her writing style, so maybe I’ll just shut up now and type some comforting and humbling excerpts.

The book is called None Like Him by Jen Wilkin

Our God is a God of no needs.

God is in fact: a self-contained source of perpetual and perfect sustenance.

He created everything, nothing He created could possibly be needful to Him for His existence. If it were, then like Him it would have always existed. Our God is self-sufficient, needed by all, needful of nothing.

Praise God that His plans do not rely on my faithfulness, His joy doesn’t hinge on my good behavior, His glory doesn’t depend on my performance. I stumble along chasing my own agendas and plotting my own ends, occasionally offering Him the reverence He is perpetually due. He is unruffled and unharmed by my inconsistency. He is pleased to be glorified either through me or in spite of me, but He does not need me in the least. And yet He loves me, deeply eternally, for no other reason than “according to the good pleasure of His will (Eph.1:3-6).


Thank You Lord

“It is not our job to be original, but to worship the Origin of All Things.”

~Jen Wilkins

“Furthermore, we are free to rely on God when our hope for a relationship or situation has dwindled to nothing. Remember, our Creator-God specializes in bringing something from nothing.

We cannot create hope where there is hopelessness, or love where there is lovelessness. We cannot create repentance where there is unrepentance, but we can cry out to the God who can.

In the first great act of creation, God miraculously rendered something from nothing. And He rejoices to continue that work in human hearts.

God may restore a broken relationship or circumstance, or He may simply restore hope to you in their midst. Not everything will be made new in this lifetime, but His promise to grow us in the fruit of the Spirit means we can know abundant life whether relationships and circumstances heal or not.”

~Jen Wilkins, None Like Him


Thankful #5

He has given me the desire to know, the ability to marvel, and to experience Him.


“Thou hast given me understanding to compass the earth, measure the sun, moon, stars, universe, but above all to know Thee, the only true God. I marvel that the finite can know the infinite, here a little, afterwards in full-orbed truth; Now I know but a small portion of what I shall know, here in part, there in perfection, here a glimpse, there a glory. To enjoy Thee is life eternal, and to enjoy is to know. Keep me in the freedom of experiencing Thy salvation continually.”

~Valley of Vision


Thankful #4

A Day of Sunshine in My Soul ❤️

God is good and His mercies endure forever


“Although the world is full of suffering it is also full of the overcoming of it…. Believe, when you are unhappy there is something for you to do in the world. So long as you can sweeten another’s pain, life is not in vain.

~Helen Keller


Thankful #3

Photo by emily2jane

Surprising to me I am thankful for losing my health care for a year. It turns out that by losing it, I have been set free.

For so many years I was held a prisoner in my job to keep my health insurance because of preexisting conditions, and by the time the preexisting conditions thing was lifted, I continued to feel bound to my insurance because of particularly bad health.

Then I lost my job and thus lost my insurance, however it was better than fine, because that job was killing me and causing the need for much medication and treatment. Once the stress was removed, I had time to take care of myself, and better health bloomed forth.

Actually, my current state of my health is not what I am thankful about regarding the loss of my insurance. It is that once I was given a new job and got my insurance back and I was thinking things couldn’t be better, I then developed a fairly serious issue that needed diagnoses and treatment. And over the course of the last year every step of the journey through my insurance carrier to get care has been a nightmarish soul sucking fiasco. I have been put off, transferred forwarded, cancelled, and ignored. I had one doctor tell me if the pain, and the shouldn’t be there stuff, hadn’t killed me yet, I should be relieved…sigh.

But the thing is, that was the only honest or helpful thing I had been told in months.

When it, all of this what ever it is started, I was smack dap in the center of brutal round of depression, and to be honest the thought of heaven was more than quite appealing and getting help more work than I wanted to roust myself to do, but I have family that cares.

Well a few months ago I couldn’t do it anymore, and gave up the struggle after once again being shuffled off to another department, and then this department gave me the routine three month wait for yet again another consultation appointment. Nope, I was done, finished.

The best possible thing arose from my relinquishment of trying to control the process. The Lord stepped into the space, the void of hopelessness I had left open for Him, to offer me the opportunity to ask Him for healing and comfort. He very politely let me know that my path forward wasn’t for me to create, but for Him to create.

My fear, my desire for answers, went away when I let Him take the lead. I am His and He is mine and His will be done was and is enough for me.

I don’t want you to think I have given up on medical care, I haven’t. The Lord provided medical care and it would smack of hubris not to accept His gift. I just don’t rely on it more than I rely on Him.

There is more power in prayer than any possible treatment or medication out there. And that is not to say that when I pray He won’t lead me to a health care provided solution. He might, or He might not. He might choose to heal me Himself, or He might not. It doesn’t matter in the end, all that matters is that I trust Him.

Oh, and regarding the undiagnosed stuff that shouldn’t be there, it is still waiting for resolution. I went to that three month out appointment and was then referred to another department with, wait for it, a three month wait time for consultation of why I am there 🙂

And God willing I will go to it without having to be concerned that they give me resolution. They will or they wont, I have faith in the ultimate goodness of God. I rest in His providence.

And like the only helpful doctor said, I haven’t died yet so why sweat it.

The Lord is good and His mercies endure forever.


Thankful November

“You will never be able to convey the truth to someone else unless you know it. Knowing it demands learning it, and learning it demands diligence, and diligence demands time.”

~Alistair Begg

Where is your treasure? My most precious commodity is time. Will I give it to the Lord? My answer in my head is a resounding yes!

However all things come with a price, and sometimes thankfully my heart occasionally wins the battle with my head, because as good as it sounds to spend all your time in the pursuit of the knowledge and comfort of the Triune God, I find the more time I spend with Him, the more obviously I see the need to also be doing for Him. Out of a the love for Him, which is ever increasing with the more I learn of Him.

And once I get beyond the glee of the need to spend oodles of time knowing and learning, I must go back to the beginning and see that the quote above, which seemed to give me reassurance that all my time should be spent in the pursuit of the Holy, begins with sharing, not hoarding. It’s not about how much I know, but knowing to share.

So, my rabbit trail as been followed and I will come back to the beginning to share thankfulness as indicated by the title above. I love November for bringing my attention around to listing daily a thing of which I am thankful. This is not as easy this year as I thought it would be. Lingering depression has me too often focusing on the negative side of things, which of course is not helpful to simple living through counting your blessing one by one…sigh

Anyway, Monday I was thankful for a good nights sleep, seems kind of lame, but at 60, arthritic, and depressed, a good nights sleep is to never be scoffed at in any way. For He is good and His mercies endure forever.

Tuesday is the this post (I am giving myself the grace to be behind). God came through for me and illuminated my mind. I love it when He does that. I find that truth is never learned, it is revealed. So I listen for Him, and when He speaks I am never disappointed,

Tuesday: I am thankful that God comforts my soul and gives my peace. He greets me in the mornings as I seek Him and He rearranges my thoughts into a discernable path with lights to lead me through the day. He makes each day the first day of the rest of my forever. For He is good and His mercies endure forever.

I guess this does tie in with Alistair Beggs’ quote, because I do start out each day seeking and soaking up His attributes, His glory.

In addition to the books I am reading, I am listening to The Fabric of the Cosmos by Brian Greene. For as I continued to dig and search and strive to understand and know what I can about an infinite God through His word, and the reading of other peoples books from their studies of His word, He surprised me, and has added His creation to the process of my edification.

It is truly wonderful to study Cosmology from a creation world view. The fingerprints of God are so gloriously evident and mind blowing in their stunning brilliance. I cannot trust in His creation of the physical any less than I trust in the creation of His word. They are both His and will not be denied. He has given both to us, and in both I see the mind of God displayed through paradoxes.

Paradox is one of the most lovely things I find about God. In my finite being I can only set two oppositional ideas together. I can see their truth and beauty, but my finite mind cannot conceptualize the blending, the dimensions, the how.

Paradox to me displays the awesome grandeur, power, love, and infiniteness of the Almighty, and this frightens and comforts me simultaneously, so God willing I hope to continue to follow His path with trust and faith even when it is difficult.

“And every created thing which is in heaven and on the earth and under the earth and on the sea, and all things in them I heard saying, “To Him who sits on the throne and to the Lamb, be blessing and honor and glory and dominion forever and ever.” And the four living creatures kept saying, “Amen.” And the elders fell down and worshipped.’

Revelation 5:13-14